“Indeed, if we set our hearts to answer but one very famous question, I am certain that all these questions and doubts will vanish from the horizon, and you will look unto their place to find them gone. This indignant question is a question that the whole world asks, namely, ‘What is the meaning of my life?’”
—Rabbi Yehuda Leib HaLevi Ashlag (Baal HaSulam) (1884—1954), The Study of the Ten Sefirot
This is a question that I have asked since a very young age. My parents even managed to convince our local library to let me have an adult lending ticket at the age of 10, since many of the books I unwanted to read could not be taken out on my junior ticket!
I have always believed in God but this question has led me to both study and practice a number of traditions some of which did not mention God, or at least drew a veil over the concept. Now I know that the word god has a whole range of meanings to different people. Brad Warner’s book, There is No God and He is Always With You, was an extremely thoughtful exposition on Zen and this concept. But this leaving out of God has always left me feeling that many of these traditions were missing an important and vital part of the creation story.
I have read a number of books on the Kabbalah and have started an online course that is given by Bnei Baruch. I am struggling with some of the concepts but I think that this is because of the many unfamiliar terms.
But from what I have read so far, it is the most complete overview of the human condition that I have come across. Kabbalah not only accepts the Creator, but gives an explanation of why we are in the state we are in and where the Creator wants us to be. The explanations offered clear up much of what the Christian church either neglects or relies on a very literal reading of the bible to explain.
I know that many feel that the study of the Kabbalah is a form of occultism that should be avoided at all costs. But I have not read anything in any of the authentic Kabbalah teachings that would lead me to this view.
It is early days in my study and I am hopeful that this is a truthful teaching that has much to offer. I hope and pray that this is the case, but time and continued effort in study will tell.